Life is not fair. Chronic illness sucks. Adventure is a distant memory. God seems far off.
Do you feel like that? I am mostly house and bed bound due to the various illnesses that I have. I used to love going to the mall, playing mini golf, actually eating at a restaurant instead of getting taking out, driving…anywhere, cleaning my home, and making bread. All of those things are in my distant past unless God chooses to heal me. Its not that I don’t look forward to whats ahead, I just really miss what I left behind.
Joy seems elusive during these dreary and cold winter months. My heart is longing for Spring and the warm breezes that come with all the newly awakened world. As I get older I find the winters to become increasingly intolerable. I’ve toyed with the idea of moving to Arizona, but I’d miss my kids too much. They’re only 45 minutes away now and i don’t see them as much as I’d like.
I’m a tad sorry that this post is a bit on the feeling sorry-for-myself side, but that’s how I’m feeling these days. I’m usually good at keeping a positive outlook and not dwelling overmuch on my circumstances.
I am aware that I’m in good company with heroes of the faith, such as David. He had no problem unburdening his heart to God, but he always came back around to worshipping the God who knows his heart like no other. Never feel that you can’t come to God with your heavy heart and talk to Him about your body, that no longer wants to cooperate. He is ever ready to listen and comfort, guide and direct, and just hold you close. Feel free to climb up in his lap and let Him father you.
Who Am I – Casting Crowns Let this video minister to you today.
What are you struggling with these days? Feel free to leave any comments. I read them all.