Keeping It Real

Life is not fair. Chronic illness sucks. Adventure is a distant memory. God seems far off.

Do you feel like that? I am mostly house and bed bound due to the various illnesses that I have. I used to love going to the mall, playing mini golf, actually eating at a restaurant instead of getting taking out, driving…anywhere, cleaning my home, and making bread. All of those things are in my distant past unless God chooses to heal me. Its not that I don’t look forward to whats ahead, I just really miss what I left behind.

Joy seems elusive during these dreary and cold winter months. My heart is longing for Spring and the warm breezes that come with all the newly awakened world. As I get older I find the winters to become increasingly intolerable. I’ve toyed with the idea of moving to Arizona, but I’d miss my kids too much. They’re only 45 minutes away now and i don’t see them as much as I’d like.

I’m a tad sorry that this post is a bit on the feeling sorry-for-myself side, but that’s how I’m feeling these days. I’m usually good at keeping a positive outlook and not dwelling overmuch on my circumstances.

I am aware that I’m in good company with heroes of the faith, such as David. He had no problem unburdening his heart to God, but he always came back around to worshipping the God who knows his heart like no other. Never feel that you can’t come to God with your heavy heart and talk to Him about your body, that no longer wants to cooperate. He is ever ready to listen and comfort, guide and direct, and just hold you close. Feel free to climb up in his lap and let Him father you.

Who Am I – Casting Crowns Let this video minister to you today.

What are you struggling with these days? Feel free to leave any comments. I read them all.

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8 thoughts on “Keeping It Real

  1. Robin, you are being honest. This time of year is the pits for us. No denying and it is very trying. Winter Blues are real. So get those twinkling lights and the color yellow plus some beaching things around you. Always get enough Vit. D as well. We are in for a winter blast just after a Sunday one–tomorrow. Yay or not. I’m learning not to look in the rearview mirror any longer. I’m the person I am today and that’s okay ’cause mainly I’m better than I ever way inwardly and emotionally. This tent will perish. But you are right, we chronic illness folk do have our laments and rightly so–just so we don’t stay there but rise again from temporary ashes. I get it. I so get it. So tired of playing the GROUNDHOG movie game. But thank God for the glimpses and the hope that prevails and carries me on. I’m praying for you and all of us. Our lives are far from easy but we have a good good God who we remain close to. ❤

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  2. Never feel sorry for sharing your real self and your real feelings because there’s always going to be someone out there that says… WOW ME TOO!!! 😉 ❤ Thank you for always being real.

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  3. Oh Robin, sadly I can relate. Day after day when I sit in the house I am grateful to be able to write, to read, to keep my mind active with word games. I’m grateful for our Pug, Effie and our new Pomchi, Gypsy, to keep me company. My husband is a blessing as he and I are both semi-retired; he cooks and does dishes and also helps with the day to day things that would normally pile up. I value your friendship Robin and your writing!

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