I know this column may not apply to some, but I would be remiss if I didn’t write about how my faith impacts my fibromyalgia. Faith actually impacts every area of my life and has done so for more than 45 years. If this subject bothers you, feel free to skip this column.
I’ve been ill with various things, including undiagnosed fibromyalgia for more than 20 years. I grew up in an abusive home where I was never shown or told I was loved. When I was 16, I became a believer in Jesus through a Billy Graham crusade. It astonished me to hear that I was loved.
No matter what I’ve gone through, my faith has been my rock. FM, like all illnesses, is a difficult disease to live with. It’s so daily and so unpredictable. Because of that, I’m thankful to have some comfort and predictability with my faith.
Whatever my day brings, I know that God has a plan and a purpose for my life. I surrender my suffering, my expectations, my limitations, my desires and my dreams to the one who created the universe, yet cares deeply for me. There is a joy, peace and contentment I would not otherwise experience.
There are those who say that I lack faith because I am not yet healed. To those people, I say that I trust God’s plan and timing. Faith has given me a compassion to care for and reach out to others who also suffer from fibromyalgia. It’s my joy and privilege to do so.
Faith for you may mean something completely different, and that’s OK. I’m certainly not here to judge or decide what others should believe. My heart reaches out to all who suffer. I still get frustrated, sad and angry about being sick and losing the ability to do the things I used to enjoy. But overall my life is defined by one of trust.
When I’m really struggling, I find that some great worship music goes a long way in bringing me peace and drawing me closer to the heart of God.
I’m hopeful that you see this is my heart, belief and journey. It’s how I’m able to accept my fibromyalgia. I believe in healing, but I’m also OK if that doesn’t happen in this life. If you completely disagree, that’s totally OK. This is just another way for me to share a bit about who I am and how I deal with my fibromyalgia within the context of my faith.